Saturday, December 25, 2010

Anarawen- I

It started out as a fan-fiction. I wrote this one back in 2003 after highschool while waiting for university entrance. I found it back while I was digging old books on my bookshelf. I made some minor editions to the old version. It gave me strange nostalgia & a sense of belonging. It made me realize that I don't write or draw anymore. I have lost some parts of myself along the way, from where I started till today. I need myself back and I need all my passions and 'will'
back into motion. It made me realize how I need to feel alive again.Though I do not regret or repent the things I have chosen to do, I do have to admit that some choices made me feel like I have sacrificed some parts of myself. So, this is to remind and resuscitate some parts of me that could hopefully be revived.

I don't know whether I should be continuing this piece of love story to its ending.. A little advice would be warmly welcomed..

With love,
Su H Cho

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Chapter One: The unexpected stranger



Under the silence of a wondrous winter evening, the white forest, with sparkles of snow coloring the leaves and branches which were once very green and colorful by the beauty of the blossoms, slept quietly. It seemed to have no visitors at all under the wild cold, but there was one.



Aldermund sheltered his keen elfin eyes from the falling snow with his right hand to get a better view of the surrounding. As he wandered around in this forest again today, after the great battle of middle-earth against Sauron, his heart beat faster and he felt home again. Through years of peace and serenity lived middle-earth, and after their ignorance it was evident that great evil had once again been awaken to seek power over the lands. His long journey started with accompanying one of his brothers, Legolas, to Rivandell for fellowship meeting and afterwards, he stayed on in Rivendell waiting for the battle summon. He looked around and whispered to himself;


“nothing has ch…”.


Suddenly his whisper stopped for he saw a figure lying at a distance. He approached fast but with the silence of an elf and caution of a warrior for he had no wish to get any surprises. As he got near, he found the figure to be a girl, lying unconscious under a tree, barely breathing. He glanced upon the stranger’s face.


“She’s quite young. What is a human doing alone in this forest afar from civilization at such a time?”


He thought to himself with a bit of confusion, but he had no time to wonder. Aldermund picked the unexpected guest up and walked quietly leaving no footprints behind to find a shelter as the weak human needed immediate care. After a few minutes of searching, Aldermund found a small cottage. He walked towards it and knocked the door but no one replied. So, he opened the door himself and got into the cottage as he had not the time to waste in the snow for the girl could die of cold.



Inside, only a bed with hay over it and a rounded wood block at the end of it was found as furniture. The cottage must have been left by someone long ago for it looked quite messy. It could have been a shelter during the great battle. Aldermund took the poor girl onto the bed to make her comfortable. He searched around the cottage and found some dry wood left near the fire place. After a short while, the cottage got warmer and there was light by the fire he made. Aldermund placed the girl beside the fire place and put his green elfin coat on her as the cold outside was seeping in. The girl was awake but still wasn't fully aware of what was happening around her. She seemed to be very weak. Aldermund looked around the small cottage for something useful and he found a jar and a cracked cup covered with hay. Aldermund took the jar & cup and got out of the cottage to make them clean enough to use. He filled up the jar with snow and got back into the house to melt it in the fire as they needed water. He took some lembus bread that was left under his green coat out and crushed them into slight pieces. He put the pieces into the boiling water in the jar & it soon became a soup.


"Lembus bread soup?....... It's better than nothing."


Aldermund told himself and helped the girl drink it because she was too weak even to get herself upright.Aldermund looked at the girl and decided to wait there until she got better.



Chapter Two: "I must save her.."



Aldermund woke up when he heard some murmuring from the girl. He waited so long that he fell asleep sitting beside the girl with his eyes opened. Elves have the ability to sleep with the eyes opened. He found out soon enough that the girl hadn't gotten better. In fact, she even got worse.

"Impossible.. She has no wounds nor suffering. This could not be natural. She must be under
a spell..."
Aldermund looked at the young girl and he felt pity and sorrow for she was very young to die even for a human.

"It could not be such an absurdity to save a being, especially one that is too young to die.."

He told himself while pulling up the girl who had found her foolish way into such a forest under the horrific weather.

"What grace has given me, let it pass through her, let her be spared.."

Aldermund whispered holding the girl in his arms along with a kiss on the forehead. For the first time, he noticed the innocence on the girl's face. As he was holding her, he could hear the heartbeat of the girl. The girl winced as if she had some disturbing pain and as he was glancing upon her face, he felt a strange feeling passing through him. He had never been this close to a lady before, not a human, not an elf, not any, not ever.

It was a strange emotion, almost as gentle as kinship yet not quite the same, and it shook him from the roots to realize that it was his kind elfin heart that was starting to betray him. Yet he had never felt this betrayal before, not even with the fairest ladies of his kind.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


Blood Rain


(You were my blood rain... )




"Life"












(how I feel about life... from my personal point of view)



Remark: Wanted to try something with the new brushes and it came out. I didn't really intended to make it when I started drawing.It might
suck.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Sonnet of the lost love..

A nay thing could I feel now in my heart, 
I feel a blue sky looking down on me.

In not nature's way could it guide me love,

So foretell psychic, what thy see of me! 

One love, once had, did bruise a heart badly. 
Tell me, answer now, could one cure or not,
For I endure a lonely heart in me.

For unhealed wounds hand me a passion lost,

Long since nay have I one laughter breeze.

With overslept love, un-wakened in snow,

Till now I hadn't a single fast beat
Yet even nay passion nor joy to show.

But, for still I possess some pride in deep,

The pain you caused, I'll hide in with ease.
Ananova(30 Dec 04)

Saturday, March 01, 2008

နားလည္မွု း ဘယ္သူမွားသလဲ

မေၿပာၿဖစ္ခဲ့တဲ့စကားေတြက
ကို႔ အၿပစ္လား က်မ အၿပစ္လား

မခ်စ္လုိ႔ မဟုတ္ခဲ့ေပမယ့္
က်မထြက္သြားေအာင္ ကိုပဲ လုပ္ခဲ့တာပဲေလ..

က်မ အရုပ္တစ္ရုပ္မဟုတ္ဘူး ကို..

ထားရာေန ေစရာသြားဆုိတဲ့ စကားမွာ
ရွင္ က်မကို ပစ္ထားနုိင္တယ္ဆုိတာ မပါဘူး..

ေလာကၾကီးမွာ ကိုယ္ေပးသေလာက္ပဲ ၿပန္ရတတ္တယ္ ကို...


ခ်စ္ၿခင္းကို နားမလည္၊ ၾကင္နာၿခင္းကို မေက်ညက္
အစိမ္းသက္သက္တဲ့.... အဟက္ ...

ေနာက္ဆံုးေတာ့
က်မ ခ်စ္ခဲ့မိ အၿပစ္ရွိပါသည္လိ႔ုပဲ...

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

ငါ ခ်စ္တဲ့သူ း The One I Love

ေမာ္လီက်ဴးေတြၾကား ဗ်ာမ်ားေနတဲ့ ငါ့ဘ၀
အခ်စ္ဆိုတာကို ခ်ိတ္ပိတ္ထားခဲ့တာ ၾကာေပ့ါ
မင္းနဲ႔ေတြ႔မွ...

သဘာ၀နဲ႔ ဦးေႏွာက္က လွိဳင္းနဳေလးေတြက
ငါမၿငင္းနုိင္တဲ့ အမွန္တရားေတြတဲ့လား..
ဟားတုိက္ခ်င္ခဲ့မိတယ္
မင္းနဲ႔ေတြ႔မွ..

(လူတစ္ေယာက္က ေၿပာခဲ့ဖူးတယ္)
ရင္ခုန္တယ္ဆုိတာကို
ရွင္းၿပလုိ႔ ရနုိင္ပါတယ္တဲ့
ငါမယံုခဲ့မိဘူး..
မင္းနဲ႔ေတြ႔မွ..

အၿပစ္မတင္ခဲ့ပါဘူး..

ဓမၼတာအရကိုက အသက္ရွင္ဖို႔တြက္
အေဟာင္းေတြ ဆိတ္သုဥ္းေပးၾကရတာပဲ...

ဒါေပမယ့္..

အမွတ္မရွိတဲ့ ဒီႏွလံုးသားေပၚမွာ
ထင္းထင္းေပၚေနတဲ့ နာမည္တစ္ခုကို
ဖ်က္ပစ္ဖို႔ေတာ့ မၾကိဳးစားခုိင္းပါနဲ႔

=

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Tis ain't a poem..it's about a guy that I saw...;)

There..a face..
So dawned by the light of joy...
Under all commonness, there lies a potential hottie...
Yet no one seems to notice....so call it luck?...

High cheeks, strong jaws...
Perfect eyebrows..
Eyelashes so curved, so strong...
Eyes so bright as discrete....
Hidden by intention under ease...

Elegance mixed with keeness...
Eyes filled with intelligence...
Seemed as though one glance is all...
Needed to see through the world...

Oi, let me see one smile!
Just one and no more....
O..let me see!

Ananova

Thursday, May 11, 2006


Pathetically Naive..

Day light is moaning
For dawn passed away.
Breezes are tuning
Yet couldn't save my day.

U hear the birds
Tickling the harmony.
I hear the wolves
Burning down their grievance(y).

"Would I die for you?"
I questioned me.
Yet still one question remains
"Would thee die for me?"

I dare not ask
For I know u so much,
For wishing not to take the risk
Of crushing my own heart.

I cried so hard
For the differences
Tearing us apart.
Though when I look back
I tasted not the love
Binding our hearts.

So, I plede you now to answer me
"Am I too cold for u?"
Or "am I just too naive
to see the dying truths?"

When u needed me
I stood there for u
While u hid away
When I cried for u.

Yet.......
For I love u so much
Let this heart be fooled ........
Ananova

Complicated Heart

If life hasn't meaning
Would one be trying best?
If love possess a meaning
Would one be looking back?

For neither I nor thee,
What the future holds,
Could we ever know,
As it comes near?

Look in deep and search the truth
What would we keep?
This life? Money? Family?
Or is it youth?

So, if you wish, if you must,
Leave me now, Leave my love,
& I will say nay word,
Or show any feeling false,
Yet...I'd suffer anyhow
For the love I repent
In past & till now....
by Ananova

question..

If feelings fly into the wind

And fade away as time passes by...

Would thy love be my sin

Not a feeling to defy?

by Ananova

Untitled

The sky shinning so brightly
Pleases me...
The wind blowing through my face
Teases me...

I smile at myself
For the feelings i felt
Still I wake up early
To touch the morning breeze...

& through my windows could I see
All the flying birds and bees
So,for all good things I receive
From lonliness and being free
I need not again
To fall in love with thee...

by Ananova

Untitled

Nights so dark
Shall I face
And bestore upon thee love
Should till lights part!

Love strong as last
Nay could thy defy
Faith true yet of heart
Could one be denied?

Strong I will travel
Towards my destinies
Yet till I stumble
On thee my love besiged!

by Ananova

Stupidity

Though not wish to trouble thee
Tell me where I'd be...

Should I summon the word "Please"
To beg you set me free
From this love for you I feel?

With thin dark walls blinding me
Your love is a path unseen.

Yet unchanged love, I'd give thee
Till the last beat my heart speaks...


by Ananova

Ought to know

You ought to know
I love you so...

I need you though
Your hands are cold...

Even in my eyes
You are my sky...

I want your arms around me
Coz' I don't wanna be lonely...

My love...
You ought to know
That I love you so...


by Ananova

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Chronic

Title : Chronic

Blow the puzzles of the past

Faces, words & eyes of darkness...

Nightmares haunted a sleepless mind

Seas be darkened by the dust...

Speechlessness of growing pain

Burning down a heart in flames...

Yet...

Not a word of out-burst truth

Could undo the chronic pain!


by Ananova

Confusion

Title : Confusion

I'm wide awake
Yes, I know I am
But my mind's weakened
With my eyes openend
And the smiles are faked...

Down under the ground
My sky, in complete darkness
My heart, exploded my numbness
My consience, ironized by dust
Stability is nowhere to be found...

If LOVE is war
Would life be the battlefield?
Would thee be able to see?
Could I be able to deal?
The answer is still far...


by Ananova

My Suicide

Title : My Suicide

God please,
Help me, give me strength
Just to survive.

God please,
Show me the way
To strengthen this pathetic life.

God please,
Please forgive me
For my self-pity and pride.

But DON'T you deny me
When I lay me down to sleep
And never wake up in this life...

by Ananova
[P.S; It's just a poem! Every artist go through that phase at one point of time, and create stuff that probably would make them smile later on. :) ]

Incurable

Title : Incurable

Turn off the light
Try to hide
Yet not the way I expected.

Wiping out my love
Denying my heart
Yet not the way I wanted.

Crying out loud
To heal a broken heart
Yet could not be heard.

Catching the words
Flooding inside my blood
Let not again the pain
Trouble this wounded heart.........

by Ananova

Deep Inside

Title: Deep Inside


Deep inside
Deep inside of me...
Oh, I can't see
Where would I be??

Deep inside
Deep inside of me...
Oh, I can't feel
What's my destiny?

Deep inside
Deep inside of me...
No, I can't find
The very part of me...


by Ananova

Monday, August 15, 2005

Saiyonara

Memories, Pains, Lasted!

Years, & Years, Past!

"Have I",did I ask,

"Found the right path?"

"Nay, NO!",I said.

With both mind and heart.

With Lingering thoughts, Problems unsolved,

Own wars, hv I fought….

Had no ally nor enemy

Even thee’d not hv mercied me…

For Drowned in heart and troublesome,

Did I trust the ocean then?

Confused & hurt,

Searching for light in the dark.

Thee was my light, so soft and bright!

For on thee my lost trust,

And thanks,and for the precious love,

Thee sheltered me in pasts.

Yet!

For now, for this life, for last……

Goodbye! my lone love.